Head And Heart Poem by Hannah Davies

I really don't want to make you feel bad
But yes, you have made me feel sad
I know you didn't mean to
And I can't even imagine what you're going through? ?

All night I laid and thought of you
Thinking is there more that I could do?
We have been through so much
I yearn for your gentle touch.

Wondering what I could have done?
Would you have come with me if I had said 'Let's Run'?
I can't believe you want to walk
I need to sit you down so we can talk.

I really didn't think it would hurt so much again
Apparently things get easier, but I can't see how or when? ?
Do you really want to give up on us?
Was this not love, only lust? ?

So many thoughts going around my head
Did you really think I was rubbish in bed?
I knwo I wasn't brilliant but I was scared
But it upsets me when to Paul you had compared.

You are teh man that he could never ever be
You will never be in the same league, you never physically or sexually abused me
If you knew all that had gone on
You would know how much I want the bad memories to be gone.

I hate how my past holds me back
And self-worth is one thing amongst many that I lack
You were always too good for me
You were unavailable, but that still didn't stop me.

So many innocent people to whom I've caused great pain
I feel so awful and full of shame
Now I'm the one left all alone
But I deserve to deal with things on my own.

If you were to come knocking at my door
Once last chance, I would take you back for sure
I undestand why you have to try
I just want you happy, it broke my heart to watch you cry.

I really do want you to give it another go
And I hope your love and happiness with Kym will once again show
But you also know that for you I would wait
But if that's not what you want, can I still be your mate?

There's a very special place
In my head, I see your face
In our dreams we're never apart
You will always be someone very special in my heart.