Where Am I Now Poem by Karin Elizabeth Martin

Where have I gone
did I get here on my own
was i led, guided, cast...
I recognize everything around me
it all looks the same
but it is all so different
I think of opportunities
of lessons, some twice
I think of what I could have learned
or changed my perception of
I am sure there is a place
where I am supposed to go
something special I am destined
If I had a book I would look for
the chapter that tells me
not where I have been
but why the roads have become so traveled
I wish I could have walked backwards
through my life
so I could see and remember
where the fork was that I missed
I always looked ahead and dreamed
and now I can't remember the nightmares
I wish for peace and comfort
sunshine and the sound of the ice cream truck
I yearn to do all these things again
right or wrong, good or bad
just to relive the memories
so that they will be clearer
to find my way home again