Vacant Heart Poem by Medusa Waves

I always am the one too much ahead, too much in the deep end
Don’t try to break the silence, I want the noise in my head to bend
- break me in two, separate the heart and mind
All the words running from the mouth, might as well be blind
Might as well fill my head with helium-I’m feeling light
I’m feeling your eyes pressed hard against me/ it burns, it burns
I’m your marked heifer/your imprinted mule—this heart learns, I learn
[Expose] too much of me to the outside world- -I’m owned, I’m owned!
And when the kisses are in public (silence) , soft moans, (soft moans)
I always give too much, I peel my flesh—and give you the blood past the adipose
Fill your ego, my grandiose love, fill your ego to the brim-write you lustful prose
Don’t act like you don’t like it/ everyone likes the high, something beyond the sky—
Don’t act like you are firmly grounded on the dirty brown grass/ mind clear as glass
This glass of mine is breaking, the small crack making its way around
How fragile! How tender, I hold myself—but there is nothing to be found
Don’t look for answers in me/ there are none
When you are ahead, don’t look back to find what’s already gone