Unable To Let Go Poem by Lisa Flores

only seventeen yet i know what life is
life is pain
a constant struggle
always fighting to stay alive

yet for what reason i do not know
all i know is that i have had enough suffering to die
when, now at this very moment
not tomorrow or within a year

i want to be able to let go
to sleep and never wake up
why
because when you are dead you have no worries, no pain, no suffering

yet i am not able to let go
i am still holding on
not for myself but for my family
my death might give me peace but my family will gain sorrow, and pain

i am not able to let go when i know it will cause pain for the ones near me