Missing You Poem by Karin Elizabeth Martin

Hello old friend, old lover, old memories
I think of you quite often, sometimes when I dream,
I remember how you taught me what you knew of love and means.
I spent my early teenage years, and gave my heart to you, yes dear
7 years I spent with you, you gave me 2 beautiful children, you were never near.
The age between us seemed allright,12 years older,12 years brighter,
I learned alot from you back then, I still remember your quirks and grins.
Alcohol got in the way, I tried to help. I tried to stay. I begged for you to see my plight, I sought help, and tried to fight.
You left me on a summer day,2 small children, me a babe,
At 17 I married you, thought I knew it all, but had no clue.
15 years passed by and sped, I never heard from you, no words said,
I raised our children, as I knew best, at 24, it was a test.
Then one bright lit summer day, our daughter married and was on her way, to places that we each had dreamed, a law man called, and asked my name. I knew right then, I would never know, what could have been, had you not let go.
I visit you from time to time. I brought you home, and made a shrine.
I cry so hard, when I lay a blossom on your grave, Oh David, I am so sorry that I never forgave. I am alright now, with you at rest. Every day remains a test. I hope that someone up above, you can see, what we did in love. I am not angry anymore, just missing you, and hoped for so much more. If you suffered in silence all those years, never calling, never here. I realize now what I knew not then, you were not trying to hurt me, it was the only way you knew to make ammends.
I will say a wish on a star tonight, that you may know a candle will always burn bright, please forgive me, first true love, I was young and naive, and knew not how to love.
I miss you so, our anniversary approaches. I will leave a rose upon your grassy knoll, please know David, I loved you so.