May.15,2015 Poem by Starseed Child

If a god resides above us answer me...a I supposed to accept this pain? every time he looks at me I feel like my walls burn down and he sees the real me, when I hear his voice its like my world goes from a blizzard of hatred and sadness to a world of tranquility, every thing feels right, when he has to go I want to reach out and stop him from leaving again...if this is what you intend to do, for me to watch
him fall in love with someone else while I watch from a distance,
I'll bare it all, even though I can't bare the pain of the past and I fear losing myself to the future...let it hurt and consume me...I see him with her everyday in my thoughts and I fear the love my heart carries for you, it left a cavern in my heart that ate away to my soul, I never let day sweep by without thinking letting you go way my pure essence of pain...but your love wasn't enough to make it through the storm...I tried to fill my void with what I told myself was love but it only caused it to grow more addicted to him, I'll never find you again so this my last piece for him that he will never see...
I pray you find love to fill your heart, that she heals your wounds from our past, she help you understand, god is selfish as we are and the devil will steal every thing but she will protect your every thing when you are weak...I pray she succeeds where i failed...
dear god, allow him to heal and love, allow no one to see these tears, let the storm rage to cover the crystals that stream from my eyes that are consumed by the truth of this world...