Life And Lords Poem by Fireguard Fire

I said I'd be alone one day
And it all started with a dream,10k
I was a jerk to most that I knew
But I knew I was more so to you
First two I met were nice and kind
They were the first to try to change my mind
With one of them I shared my past
Though I knew it wouldn't last
For I tell all I'm meant to be alone
How could you change that from my phone?
The other wasn't quite as nice
But she needed some advice
That's how I met the third you see
Who will later love one close to me
She called me Zeki and I called her Satis
Our relationship was a perfect praxis
Though I know that she was pressured
My anger at what she did could not be measured
I went too far I knew
But that was when I had met meuw
At first I thought him just a kid
But he understood why I did what I did
The fifth person that I met
Was one I wish I could forget
For while I knew that it was wrong
I was drunk and we got along
Though satis had a problem again
One that came between two men
Though both asked me to help them win
Neither won her heart within
Though not all was lost from this
One of the men understood my risk
Niko was an odd of sorts
My talks with him they were not short
We talk together about what pained
I hope from this there's more he gained
He had a friend I'd later meet
His name was gray and he loved feet
Though something I missed at my first glance
For him and satis there was a chance
While I may have lied to inspire courage
Today we see the chance of marriage
Gray wanted to repay this favor
But what he found was a sour flavor
I warned that it could never work
He'd have a better chance with our friend Turk
I met a girl who was short and strange
She cared for me, I tried to change.
While I had tried to keep my distance
We came together at Gray's insistence
But as I told them it wouldn't last
And opened up about my past
They all began to fade away
Though they denied it anyway
They tried so hard to make me see
That I was my worst enemy
Before they left I met two more
Both of which said I could soar
Accused of whining for attention
With short grew a deal of tension
For while I watched them leave my life
I knew they did not see my fight
I did my best to not annoy
Feeling like my feelings were a toy
I may of whined and cried a lot
They couldn't see what I had wrought
Scared of myself desperately on my phone
As I sit here, again, alone.