Just A Reflection Poem by Katie Anon

As my eyes focus and it becomes clear
I feel the emotions so familiar
Sadness, shame disgust and hopelessness
Form a knot in my chest

Body shape is not the dictator of attractiveness
I know there is no logic to this
I believe self-acceptance is most beautiful to see
But that doesn't help me

Thoughts cannot dampen these cruel feelings
I can ignore them but it is uncomfortable
Like this I have no hope of enjoying touch
It is far too much

I still believe loosing weight is a possible answer
Maybe then I could accept this body
But this causes its own problems for me
And drives exhausting eating difficulties

I wish my body caused me less distress
That would be good enough for me
Just feel comfortable enough to let someone in
But I don't know how to begin