05/03/2017 Poem by Starseed Child

everyone wearing black and the noiseless sound of tears crying out slowly we all approach for the dreaded last good bye, will we really meet again or do we just dispel into nothingness...you treated me like your own loving me no matter what I did you believed in me, why? all the wrong turns you were supposed to be there and guide me through it I misjudged myself thinking you would remain in this world for ever and all the memories ripping me apart before you died your lifeless body no more laughter, no more smiling no more pain? all the people around me simply cry like mirrors posted echoing each other as well as I but deep down I hate myself because I am relied that you no long have to worry about tomorrow or the fallowing but just as well you now see the liar that is within me the poison words I speak, do you now hate me? have you finally given up on me? now that I cant lie to you...you see everything, I don't even have the strength to touch the empty shell living before me that once housed your sunflower colored soul afraid I would taint it even if the real you no longer belongs to this word...my inner self begs and begs for your forgiveness don't hate that addiction which I no long have the energy to fight...while I am dazed by the realization of no longer being loved by you, I snap back like a rubber band into reality standing in front of your last bed lined with silk and holding something so precious and still all I can do is stand there and apologize to a emptiness to make myself feel a little closure because the next time we meet will be surround by nothingness just use and hopefully your bright and brilliant soul will spare me forgiveness and understand...until that time I shall rewrite my thoughts and hopefully a proud light from you will shine upon me...no good bye but until we shall me again in the upcoming end or in another life...