The Man I Might Become Poem by Michael Ordia

I'm scared of the man I might become
A false man like my father.
I'm scared of hurting women the way dad hurts mum
Daddy doesn't beat mum, he never hits her
But his words are like poison, they burn the heart
Daddy makes mommy cry night after night
I can't sleep because of my nightmares
I see myself hurting mum in my dream and I wake
with tears in my eyes.
Mum, I might be a monster like dad.
I might save marriages from death like a hero
Then I might set flames at mine, destroying my family's joy.
Mum, I wish you could truly smile
I wish we could stop acting like we're fine.
I wish I wasn't dad's son. I'm scared of the man I might become