Resolving To Live Poem by S JYOTI RANJAN

Agony of failing kidneys,
Rise of creatinine and the hope to make it fall,
Hypertension, and the hope to make it balanced,
Tastelessness of renal diabetic diet,
Moments of hypoglycemia and hyperglycemia
and the unwanted perspiration,
Eccentric and inquisitive to know about
the longevity of those taking dialysis,
Perforation of jugular vein,
Hoping against hope every moment that,
the failure gets reversed and not
needing one hemodialysis machine,
Knowing people and celebrities who
have lived with contentment beyond
two decades with dialysis,
And the silver lining, understanding
the value of life and getting determined for
a fulfilling and qualitative life,
Understanding that miracles can happen,
Herbs can still do wonders,
And the sudden enlightenment, making one
quite sure and obstinate that,
if I desire to live long and healthy the
universe shall conspire to deliver it to me,
Resolving to live, just live and forever 'live'.


(Dedicated to my father on his first day of dialysis.
Love you bapa. You shall get well soon.)