Noxolo Poem by Felix Otiende

LOVE OF NOXOLO
Am lost; Am lost emotionally
Can someone show me my way through the thicket
I can't find my way
For the first nine months mamma gave me love unselfishly
When I met her, I wanted to share what mamma taught me and gave me
How stupid was I?
She did everything to win my heart& indeed I gave her the keys to my heart with a pure true heart
She changed my dreams
Oh poor me! I fall on her trap
She made my fate unknown to me
Why did I became her victim: I was happy &honoured for her proposal but unfortunately I can't know how hot the pat is until i touch it
I was converted to Christianity because of her
She lived on lies: Everything were lies covered by lies
How was I blinded by her lies? You can't cover lies by lies forever
She didn't have a heart at all, she was uneatable
It was hurting her see me with my wife; that's why she decided to cause confusion & my wife left.
Only for her to destroy me completely
I accepted her with her burdens: cause I believed in her
Waah! It was a game without a referee
Her son became ours. I didn't care nor wanna know his father
Whereas my daughter went hungry and missed me
I didn't know in between the journey she'll kill me
I've missed seeing her: But its better than living on her lies
Arranging your issues in my house with other men
Lion will never be a cat that why she needed someone by her side
You don't have a heart at all
She was my confidence, I walked around proudly of her
Oh! Where will I hide my face to the world
Shame is what is left behind. The blessing I received
I can't repent my sins
How will I knee down and pray? Prostitution
I valued her dignity: which was nothing to her: a black ugly prostitute she was
I know how Delilah was capable to conquer Samson
She walk around proudly of herself: I leave everything on God's hands.
I hope my wife and my daughter will forgive me
My arms are always open to hug them