Not So Much A Life But A Dream Poem by Miiya Skky

So I live life as much as I can, dedicating everything I possibly can to the ones I love. Is that enough? ? No I don't think so. There are so many things that want to break me and i feel captive held in this spiral of love, or is it maybe that feeling of never being able to get over that 'ex' love, a fling that never happened, lust that feels overrated to some level. Every time I tried to leave I got pulled back in by tears and a promise of a better tomorrow.
I feel more pain in this relationship only because i love him but i know in my heart that its not meant to be, that there is no future.
Everyday i awake to his golden green eyes, beautiful smile, his warm heart and soft hugs.
I could sit here and play it over and over in my mind of all the reasons why i love this man so much but it would take an eternity. How can one love so much but know in ones heart it will never work, how can i go on living in such a spiral? Its a different situation with everyone i suppose.
Not everyone's love stories are ever the same but still i think dreams are much better....
Peaceful..