I See You Poem by D Loveday Morris

Because I choose to see beyond just black or white
Doesn't mean I've weakened, weak or lack insight
Because I choose to ignore your malicious intent
Doesn't mean I can't see beyond your guise and pretence
Because I choose to focus on the positive
Doesn't mean I am ignorant of the negative
Because I chooseto focus on the good
Doesn't mean I am unaware that not everyone would

Believe me, I see you, I see all of you
I see parts of you that I don't even think you knew
I see the brashnes in your words
And those snarky, unprofessional remarks, believe me I heard
I see the poisonous snake bites that you give
And I choose to strain, dredge and view the good in you and let it live
And that takes strength beyond just my will
And yet I will choose to do it still
Although a glass is not needed to magnify
I choose to see you beyond your lies

Believe me, I see you and your unforgiving ways
And I've come to realise it's not just a phase
I hear the way you thunder a blunder
And your ultimate pleasure is taking one under
I see the things you do to others and how you relish their mistakes
And I choose to see beyond your world of flakes
So the grace I grant you when we make a round
Comes from one who has been around
And although with calm I pacify
Doesn't mean I don't see you and your lies

But believe me, I see you, I really do
And I imagine others see you too
The cynic and blithe critic that you are
Choosing to win battles and lose a war
Like so many others, your mistake
Is not realising the war is against the things we all hate
And the people you tear down and try to kill
Those people are all humans still
And the little misakes that they make
Are all parts of human trait
It doesn't matter who you are or the profession you are in
You are not infallible or beyond sin
Why battle other humans when there is a war to win?

So yes, I see you; I see all of you
But through eyes of grace that God favours me too
For when your cup is full and overflowing with grace
It's easier to invite others to get a taste
For beyond any earthly mission given
The aim is to forgive and experience heaven
And because I forgive you doesn't mean there shouldn't be consequences
For the things you do and your lack of conscience

The reason I choose to see beyond black or white is because of my insight
And I choose to focus on the positive
Because it benefits my health and really allows me to live
For life gives the gifts that you accept
And I choose to live my life without regret
I receive the same emotions like you
Including hurt, anger, pain, disappointment and sadness too
But I believe in letting go and letting God do what He wills
And when He does, I choose to trust Him still
And the reason my pain doesn't last
Is that I'm not afraid to click pray and restart
For my life is not for humans to control
And that's why I can choose to live bold

D. Loveday Morris
May 25,2020

An Extract from the Diary of a Jamaican Critical Care Nurse Livimg and Working in the UK