God Is Not Fair Poem by Chan Mongol

I prayed God to be kind! Help to heal!
To save my brother and give me a deal!
He was the guardian angel, he was my older!
God killed him from the dangerous, deadly cancer! !

We grew up together!
My dada was only two years older!
The life in the past, I now remember!
He had a khaki short and mine in grey color! !

We played and roamed here and there!
He put his hand on my shoulder! !
I wanted to tell him over and over!
He was my guide! He was my brother! !

But my mouth was not open!
Good words were not spoken! !
I couldn't tell him how dear he was!
For, he was suffering worst than Jesus! !

We started school together!
They put me in one baby class lower!
I cried and cried for brother!
Without him I had so much fear! !

I prayed God to be kind! Help to heal!
To save my brother and give me a deal!
He was my guardian angel, he was my older!
God killed him from the dangerous, deadly cancer! !

He always wanted to save us!
His dedications were always so obvious!
He was rare, he was deep in prayer!
To help us, he always had to suffer! !

I told God! Don't take him away!
He is my brother whom I follow and obey!
I hurt him often because I didn't like his care!
Now, I realize that he was for me so dear! !

Oh God! What a state of life with fears!
You couldn't save my brother for more years!
Why didn't you target me to die?
Why didn't you spare my brother to stop my cry! !

He was fighting, I heard his scream from pain!
All their efforts were just going in vain!
Parents taught us to care for each other!
God! You killed my brother from deadly cancer! !

He always wanted to save us!
His dedications were always so obvious!
He was rare, he was deep in prayer!
To help us, he always had to suffer! !

He thought I would know the magic to cure!
But chemo alreadykilled his good cells for sure!
I couldn't comfort him from horrible pain!
God didn't bless and prayers wentin vain! !

He always wanted to save us!
His dedications were always so obvious!
He was rare, he was deep in prayer!
To help us, he always had to suffer! !

My life ended half, without the day light!
Whatever left for darkness from the twilight!
Mission to uplift the family was unsuccessful!
I failed because I was a powerless fool! !

I took many risks to go in the other side!
And brother wanted to guard me as a guide! !
No one will scold me anymore for not taking care!
Cruel God took brother from the pain of cancer! !

When I used to be sick and needed hospital!
He always escorted me like an angel!
Gave overprotection and I disliked his presence!
Now, I lost him and will be missing his kindness! !

My life ended half, without the daylight!
Whatever left for darkness from the twilight!
Mission to uplift the family was unsuccessful!
I failed because I was a powerless fool! !

When they are enjoying meal!
When in money transaction deal!
Talking and laughing together!
Do not give a damn about my brother! !

When they are so happy at home!
And my brother went to roam!
He will never come back, he will never return!
Never from that hanger and barn to turn! !

When it rains, it snows, it's hot here!
When we are home, in the shelter!
My blood brother is somewhere, still outside!
We are cheering and cherishing but he died! !

I wish, I could help him to cure from cancer!
Why couldn't I save himfrom that death-fear?
The truth is, we all will die!
So, care each other before goodbye! !

So heart breaking to lose a blood family!
Tolose the network, the connectivity!
To be detached and to leave for good!
To stop the ration, the drink and food!

I cry often with the flood of tears in eyes!
But soon, I come to know that everybody dies!
Is there a mighty magician whom I can trust?
Who can bring a body from ash and dust? ?

When they are enjoying meal!
When in money transaction deal!
Talking and laughing together!
Do not give a damn about my brother! !