Dishonesty Of Depression Poem by Katie Anon

When I say I'm OK when my heart disagrees
Each time my smile hides the hurt
Or when my wants I do not assert

I feel like I'm hiding part of myself
And I hate that dishonesty
Does it take away from my integrity?

So much of my life is not shared
The struggles in just being me
And in this solitude I feel so lonely

I want to share my world
But I also feel embarrassment and shame
And I fear for others it is all too alien

To understand is hard I know
In sharing there is so much to gain
But also the risk great loneliness and pain

Each time it is a fight between my heart or head
So I feel great conflict with this choice
Often in the moment loosing my voice

But look into my eyes, they show the truth
The fear, hurt, hope sadness are there
In my unsure stare