Am I Ever Gonna Be Ok? Poem by Broken Angel

don't get me wrong,
I'm not suggesting anything.
.~.
Just saying,
the pain is so deep.
Embedded ever so far,
within my hurting soul.
.~.
At times,
I feel well,
but at moments,
I still have pestilential thoughts.
.~.
I've tried to forgive,
but I guess I just can't.
Wanting to just hide,
forever to sleep and never seeing the light of day.
.~.
Only thing left to say,
is...Sorry for all of this,
the non forgiveness, hurt and thoughts.
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