The other day
I woke up feeling low
I tried not to think about you
to stop the inevitable tears that threatened to fall.
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On my mind scarily,
I am craving that which I have never tasted,
Wanting it to last forever yet it hasn't began.
U are my secret addiction,
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Something I could never have
Someone I could never have
A mockery of love
A taunting of my emotions
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She claims him but his heart belongs to me.
The intricacies of this situation constantly drowning me in waves of uncertainty.
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He is what he is
Two days down the line
And I am missing him
His smile which is rarely given
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I think of him every so often
His skin under my touch
His fingers weaving into mine.
I think of him
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Sometimes you move past someone,
Not because you don't love them,
But because their love causes you pain.
Because to continue loving them is to start hating yourself
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I once knew a man who loved me dearly.
He was older much older than l, with all the idiosyncrasies that come from old age.
He was grouchy, grumpy and at times mean-spirited but he loved me dearly.
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Too many times we expect too much,
To be loved by who we want,
To be happy with who we have,
To be respected by who we love,
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I met him in a small bar
Tipsy and lightheaded
I looked at him
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Funny how when you are single no one seems to want you
but when you meet someone all of a sudden you are flooded by others.
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MY BELOVED NUBIA
So much is always said about how our continent is poor, squalid, dirty.
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I weep for the boy he once was
And I weep for the man he has become
For I know between boyhood and manhood
There is a lot of pain and sorrow
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Funny Things Tears
The other day
I woke up feeling low
I tried not to think about you
to stop the inevitable tears that threatened to fall.
Funny things tears, they linger yet do not fall.
That night I got angry
as I walked fron the bus stop to my home
My mood slowly dissipated into sadness
I felt the bloody tears linger
am guessing they showed because some ladies looked at me
gossiped and actually stood to stare
Funny thing tears are, they know no shame.
Yesterday I drunk myself into a stupor
because I couldnt bear the thoughts
the happy memories, the questions.
I smoked because I wanted to burn away my pain
my loneliness, my intense craving to end it all
Funny things tears, they come when you least expect them
Last night I hated you
Hated my intense stupid love for you
Hated that my life was blank without you
I went running, jogging to absolve the pain
to numb myself, but pain is stubborn
I ran for miles but still felt that swift flash.
Funny things tears, they burn.
Today I woke up
ignoring my phone I tried to resist it
to resist the urge to call you,
But I did,
Lunch, drinks, kisses more promises
apologies more excuses
smiling, laughing, forgetting
Funny thing love it forgets the tears easily.
Tonight I sleep soundly
But Tommorow I work and the cycle begins.
Funny things tears sometimes they cleanse you.