jess deaves

I stumbled if by accident upon a cold tall wall
Although, i was always meant to be lead there
The touch enough would make your skin crawl
The way forward barred, as far as i was aware
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Kiss the stars with me in twilight
We don't have long
The stars for us will shine bright
In our world together there is no wrong
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Close your eyes and i'll close mine
Wishes these bodies cant confine
Remember you remember me
Together entwind oh so gently
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Dont give up on your dreams
The one thing you want
The thing that completes
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Caution the floors wet, been crying
I gave up so fed up of trying
To accept that gut renching truth ive been denying
To myself i need to stop lying
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I always smile when i think of you
The one for me, who is always true
The one i turn to
Whatever happened you help me through
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For a friend.

There is always some reason to not feel good enough
How many times do you think i can cope with your cold rebuffs?
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You are my sun, my personal sun
Rays so bright and lasting they could not be undone

A glowing ember burning hot and burning slow
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I live in a daydream only you know
My head in the clouds while life continues below
And yet you love me exactly as i am, just for me
I dont have to pretend there is nothing you cant see
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I try real hard to smile my words are not so sure
I go through all the actions to seem more secure
I laugh, i smile, i act so full of life just to ensure
People cant, dont see through, dont see how im unsure
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Ok this, is written for and about a very close friend of mine. Happens to be going through a really bad break up *hugs*

Its only time im wasting
Its only hopes and fears
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You resent and yet with grasping hands
Pouring out these ridiculous demands
I feel sorry, but youre not a little girl
You are part of the reason that had to unfurl
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Im waiting for it to be over but it isnt yet
Hoping this ache is as hard as it gets
She walks a ghost in the background and i cant make a sound
Something has to give its so tightly wound
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A small inextrodinary sight to the unknowing
The same sight sears pain through my chest
Attempting to keep the heartache from showing
But the feelings keeps growing deep within my breast
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I understand how you feel
As you stood where i stand

I can see all the reasons i failed you
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I cant stop
Even if i lose
These wounds
Are self inflicted
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Observe me in my curious show
As the blank crowd fills below
I've been up here sinse long ago
Waiting for some one with hope to bestow
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* When we were young
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I wil take the risk and wait
I will give it up to fate
You always say what will be will be
I just hope one day you will love me
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Is it over yet?
Is this as hard as it gets?

Remember everything we wanted
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