C.R. Ebowski

Look into my eyes and deny the truth
Tell me a lie that I haven’t heard before
Tilt your head and smile
Believe that your charm is impressive
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Principles are yelled at the top of lungs
Spitting daggers of truth
Deflating the bubbles of lies
That shields the ignorant from reality
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A shot of tequila
Rinsed with bourbon
Settles my stomach
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I fold my shaking hands and hang my weary head
Praying one day I will be able to leave my past behind
God help me understand how to face these trials
And in the end be able to keep my peace of mind
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Hatred fumes
Anger consumes
Envy explodes
Jealousy implodes
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There are bodies laying on the floor
Blood seeping from the room
Covering their wounds
But that’s death
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I gaze down the barrel of my gun
Fixating on the grooves that radiate
Wondering what it will be like
When I finally pull the trigger
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I fix my eyes above
Waiting for an answer
Waiting for Him
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You ask me who I am
And that is a loaded question
I do what I want, whenever I can
Without a lecture from anyone
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Slammed into
Tripped over
Knocked down
Pushed around
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My body belongs in a youngster’s generation,
Free from gray hairs and age spots,
But there are wrinkles on my shriveled heart,
Symptomatic of life’s harsh lessons.
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I have always been different
Marching to the beat of my drum
And this time will be no different
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Ocean mist
Machine gun spray
Sand on my feet
Salty air
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If I could not find a way then I must try to salvage part of my day
Thinking, breathing, debating about time and the spaces between
When nothing compares with everything and no solution is found
Hide and seek, remember and forget the past and present
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I stare at this computer waiting for the perfect,
Inspirational words to flow across the screen,
But my mind becomes clouded with the darkness
That has consumed my decrepit excuse for a human being.
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Mamma said look where you walk
And speak slowly when you talk
Mamma said don’t talk to strangers
And watch out for any unknown dangers
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Secrets possess me.
Secrets define me.
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Words written
Lies told
Eyes deceive
Shattered mold
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Crash into me
Ignoring boundaries
Violators beware
The penalty is death
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There are wars that are to be won
And there are wars to be lost
There are lives to be saved
And there are lives to be lost
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