To My Narcissist & Depression Poem by Amanda Shelton

Depression,
I caught you swimming in my sorrow,
you were drowning in my tears.

There in my mind I laid down my life
but you stole my heart instead and
I lost my mind amongst the shadows.

In the battle of my chemical imbalance
I fight for my right to be happy again.

I am dancing in the dark with myself,
my heart beats in the shadows as
my breath stands to the side,
whispering to me keep dancing.

Exhausted and frade sorrow follows me, my flaws abuse me, my mistakes
scared me.

Society forgot about me,
I faded into the pitch of nothing.

A void of me, frightening memories
of taunting accusations from a
devilish monster.

Those eyes of blue devoured
my hopes and dreams,
he had no love for me.

His teeth bit into me,
his harsh lashing of accusations
embodied hate and broken ideas,
from the narcissist who said
he loved me.

The narcissist invaded my dreams,
with grinding bones from the
skeleton's he stored in his closet
of screams.

Scratching my brain with his
narcissistic rants and shoveling
wants trying to steal what
I achieved for himself.

The narcissist knows nothing of
love and passionate embraces.

For the narcissist only
knows how to break things.

A narcissist gaslights until crazy
devours everything.