That's Why I Am Afraid Of You Poem by Akhtar Jawad

I never knew her intentions,
she came to me with her hands
hidden behind her back,
I knew she has a crack,
I knew in her there is a lack,
a confidence on a friend?
But what did she intend?
What did she bring for me in her hands?
somewhere in the unconscious lands of her brain,
she has fears,
somewhere in dry lakes of her eyes,
she has tears,
somewhere in the bed room of her heart,
she has sharp spears.
She asked me to close my eyes and come near,
She tied my hands with a handkerchief on my back
and put a painful sticky tape on my lips.
I don't trust my boy friends
as I was raped when I was a child.
Since then my broken heart has been turned in hard stones,
I am no more flush! I am changed in pieces of unbreakable bones,
Do you know who the guy was?
He was my best friend!
You are also a very good friend,
That's why I am afraid of you.
Still I can only stripe for you,
just to show you my bleeding cracks,
you shall now know what an abused child lacks!
Come on friend let us dance,
this is the climax of my romance!