Matryoshka - All Poems - No Way Poem by Gencay

The pain of my pain that has not happened but will one day
Before it happened
feeling the deepest of my heart
The pain of things not lived
I'm tired of pulling in advance.
Between making a decision and not being able to
I can't get out of that indescribable place
And it is very dark.

To live, to commit suicide, to talk,
silence, not a syllable
To even think that it will come out of my mouth
it bores my soul
choking me.
Every action I do or think I do
it is so ridiculous..
This lifeless thing inside of me makes me nervous.

I have nothing left to love
I don't remember the number of ahs I suffered
He forgot his reasons a lot.
This sadness of mine is heavier than that of wine,
That he was prevented from being a grape
and sad to be crushed,
Because I couldn't get close to all this..

Once upon a time I tried to fall in love,
This is my biggest disgrace.
What to fall in love with?
Writing nonsense in lonely places
What am I but a vagabond?

Ahh nothing's going right in my life
My life has no way..!