Look Into The Abyss Poem by Sven Rhoads

In a time of despair I was hanging by my own hands
All the words to explain remained under my tongue
Dawn and dusk was just another falling grain of sand
Too sad to continue to stand, too hateful to kiss the gun
You left me when I needed you more than a breath
Surgically cut out all my reason to hold on
From the cliff I let go into the pitch black death
There was no need in the light to belong

It all came crashing down without an answer
Like life was infected by a terminal cancer
Even a beautiful portrait holds an artists tragedy
Crumbling down until shattered pieces remained

So I became a shadow of my former self
There was no place left for me anymore
Dead among the living, a personal hell
An empty purpose like a mask I wore
Hollowed out until an empty shell remained
Left alone upon the ground with myself
The choice was clear that rest inside my brain
Embody the pity or salvage the broken shell

Like a star just flickering in a black ocean
There was still a light in this dark
But a metamorphosis will begin
Cause I cannot return once I begin

As I look into the abyss from years being out
I no longer know who I once used to be
Love and failure disintegrated
I've shed a new skin for the mirror to see
No longer to need a world
No longer to need a hand
Been lead astray for far too long
I realize the sorrow I understand

Love is only a poison to keep the crave
Submitting on your knees in tears
I'm sick of hurting and pretending
They've all faded away in years
Wiser beyond the means I thought
Rising from the fire that was an ember
Simplicity is a value I have learned
To leave the hands of social gravity

I look into the abyss and cast the stones
Crawl back demons of the mind
Identity becomes so clear
I no longer look for a light in the dark
For I am the fire on my way
For I am not who I once was