Lament Of Love Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Meeting, talking, playing games of love without ever
touching one another, telling secrets of your heart
and soul, somehow getting me to tell you mine.

Loving me unconditionally, making me feel like I was
in seventh heaven and could do nothing wrong, coming
to me every day and long into the night.

Not sleeping, yet having energy of your love to keep
me going, never getting tired, touching my heart ever
so gently, filling my soul tenderly with your own.

Strengthening my inner being, wanting me more than any-
one or thing in this life, riding waves of euphoria,
never coming down.

You were like a drug, an aphrodisiac that I wanted for-
evermore, you took my heart with yours, filling it with
passion, desires, want and promises.

Giving me attention, never letting my attention wane,
capturing my heart and being, making me a slave to your
own desires and passion.

Surrendering fully to you, what choice did I have my love?
for years we met transcendentally, loving, never veering
from one another.

Being held a prisoner by your heart, but not caring for I
was being loved for myself and you continually kept me so
close to you.

Then invisibly something started changing, your mind wand-
ered to another woman, you stopped talking to me day and
night.

Your promises of love lying strewn on empty pathways and
floors, no longer holding any promise for me, this heart
of mine not wanting to let you go for I was yours and you
were mine forever, or so I had thought.

Now staring into empty space, waiting for your call, hoping
for an answer, holding onto a dying hope, you'd taken my
heart, my innocence, my purity of intellect.

Dumping it all, leaving me like flotsam upon waves, being
tossed and thrown without a thought or care from you, for
you had already moved on, leaving me to fend for myself.

Wondering where the love you had professed so tenderly and
lovingly for me had gone, sitting here, staring into space
for hours, tears falling, heart crushed and broken beyond
repair.

Now knowing everything you told or professed of your love
for me was merely lies, you only wanted to help me, lead
me back to a life of humanity.

For you in your divine ignorance thought it best, devasta-
ted, having given my life, heart, soul to you in return for
your love, now finding it was all a lie.

As you leave me here alone, bleeding, the pain of my heart
breaking, killing me entirely, being cruel, rude, unmind-
ful as you say.

Tossing me away and never looking back at what we had, yet
now I see it was only the illusion of your lies, there was
nothing really there for me from you.

My life, heart and soul, you played like a concerto, an
instrument of your lust and ego, then taking it all from me
for you found another innocent to help and started draining
her like you have done to me.