In My Sorrow Poem by Kenneth Maswabi

My tears left me dry
My heart a desolate place
Emptiness moved through my veins
I felt helplessly alone
My strength gone
My mind shattered
My heart squashed
I was a ghost inside my house
Nothingness surrounded me
I was totally empty of myself
Life was meaningless
My hope vanished
My spirit dejected

For a brief moment
I was inside the house of Silence
And I was hospitalized by the spirit
Every ounce of my body was pounded
And every thought frozen
I was numb inside
For a brief moment
I was free
I was in the land of peace
A long distance away from home
My life a distant memory

Then I came back
My ego rushed in
My thoughts melted
And flooded my mind
I was drowning in my own misery
Now I was truly helpless
My heart was an empty shell
My mind was a house of pain
And I was a victim of my own thoughts (ego)
I spent many sleepless nights inside my head
Held hostage by my own thoughts
The punishment was brutal
As I was pounded with questions
Why? Why? Why me?
There were no answers
Only pain
My tears were my only comfort
As I battled with myself
Alone under the blanket of sorrow