I'm Lost. Poem by Emma Jane Rae

I always try,
To do my best,
But I end up giving more,
And somehow receiving less,
It's hard to say,
But I must confess,
I feel so lost,
Inside my chest,
My sparks gone out,
Which once shone bright,
It's like I'm struggling,
To find the light,
I just want something,
To ignite my spark,
To guide me out,
Of the painful dark,
It's true what people say,
I've been through a lot,
Some memories,
They hurt and are best forgot,
It's true that I also,
Got treated bad by a bloke,
With his actions,
And the words he spoke,
But etched in my brain,
Is the venom in Every one of his words,
Which taught me a lesson,
Never fall in love with a turd,
So I changed my life,
And I made it mine,
And I convince myself,
That i feel just fine,
I changed my job,
And I changed my guy,
Who no longer,
Has me questioning why?
So I dunno why I'm lost,
In my perfect little life,
Planning our future,
Becoming a wife,
But it's not that part,
Where I feel so lost,
I need to save my sanity,
But at what cost,
I need to feel important,
In my own right,
To bring from the darkness,
And back into the light,
To be the woman,
I know I can be,
To feel content,
Just by being me.