I'm Fine Poem by Kwenadi Gaaje

I have long been suffering from my unknown trauma.
All i ever feel is like i'm losing myself
Trying to pick up the pieces that got broken unnoticed.
Each day i wear a mask of a happy soul
Knowing that deep down i beg my heart not to be so weak
Beg my eyes not to lose a single tear for it takes away my strength

I said i'm fine
For i am scared of being judged
I said all is well with me
Knowing my eyes reflects another story
I said i'm a peace
Knowing that my soul is tainted and that i'm fighting a losing battle with myself.
And i looked deep inside me and saw how agony afflicted my inner being.

I longed for peace long enough to know it literally torments me.
I yearned for sanity long enough to feel like i'm losing my dignity.
I prayed for love so deeply to finally feel like i'm always lamenting when it comes to this love thing.
I keep on cracking the mirrors of my walls in tryingto mend the broken pieces of my heart.
Although i said i'm fine
I'm still trying to protect my soul from being tainted.
I said i'm fine knowing i'm not.