I Do, Want To Trust You.. Poem by Sharon Swathi Gaddala

Fizzle I feel, is this for real?
Could it be a little weird,
hope it will soon be cleared. 

Not sure if you feel the same,
don't know who to blame,
is it you or me good at playing palpable games,
we know each other well enough than just our names..

Every moment was worth the magic,
never ever thought they will end this tragic,
Memories indelible and etched forever,
Oh.. Sorry I was honest and not playing clever..

I recall the time I was by your side,
sometimes would ponder what was this ride?  
let this roll, than to involve and hurt my soul,  

Goddamn crazy journey,
with a touch of being self-attorney..
Till death do us apart,
you are the one I never wanna depart....

Discovered an ocean of love,
waves whirling right above,  
Wanted to just drown,
all ended up with a teary crown.. 

I gazed thru your eyes,
noticed some bed of lies 
Every tear I shed was not worth the wait,
after all this, I still can`t believe its called fate! !  

Wish is to go back and redo a few things,
Oh my was this mistaken to be a fling,
that moment.....I was an eagle with cut off wings...

Hurt and despair,
extremely hard to spare,  
Hallucinations inside me,
a second of sonorous and scars forever to be..
Will never forget those horrendous emotions,
fret by tears and absolutely no sight of cheers.. 

Is it all over again? or will I see a rainbow after this sort of rain?

Start with fresh misty air and this time with a little wise care,

Miss those kisses and hugs,
doses of therapeutic drugs,  
Want to hear your voice,
but lurching with no choice.. 

You mean a lot to me,
on my mind like a bee,  

May be you will never KNOW and perhaps my soul will never SHOW..

Fizzle I feel, is this for real?