I Am The Queen Of My Life Poem by Bernedita Rosinha Pinto

I am the queen of my life
and no one can rule me;
I rule over myself
and I follow my own decrees;
I have a flower-garden
that speaks to me every morning;
it tells me to be silent
and to keep smiling;
there are many flowers in my garden,
they are so cool and so colorful
just like my mood;
sometimes I am smiling
sometimes I am angry
but most of the time
like the flowers I am thinking.

I am the queen of my life,
I have a little fish in a glass bottle
it is easier to clean it than a large aquarium;
and as my nephew complains it is boring
to clean a huge water-pot called an aquarium;
I keep my little fish in a glass bottle
and it keeps swimming in it happily;
it talks to me when I look at him,
when he is hungry he stares at me,
the moment I drop food
he is rushes up and gulps it
and though he eats it in bits and pieces
he is so grateful to me;
I learn from my fish to be content
and like him I retain my wisdom candidly,
I learnt from him that if I ever reach the bottom
I must swim up to survive and breathe easily;
life is nothing but an ocean of ups and downs.

I am the queen of my life,
and I am lucky to have just a few friends
and a handful of neighbors
who are so cordial and understanding;
but they are all so pensive
because of the pandemic;
I tell them not to worry
though much worried and panicky I myself feel;
yet I traveled far and beyond this globe lately
without fearing the virus or its variant;
I went to Spain, Portugal, France and UAE
in just a month and had a great time;
fortunately, the pandemic did not find me;
so I had no punishment
nor much enjoyment due to fear of the virus
but I still managed to do all my Xmas shopping
with a carefree mind
and landed home with so many things
for my family and friends
as they are also a part of my life.

I am the queen of my life.
and I also have a snake around my house
it has been here for long,
and it is only a cobra;
so far it has not bitten me
though it visits my backyard often
but I am not terrified of it;
I say I will die when I have to
and my fate will decide what end
I must meet;
but I learnt from the snake
not to harm others
but to infuse vengeance
if anyone hurts or comes in my way.

I am a queen of my life,
and I have a book and a pen
to keep writing what I think;
I also have a large laptop before my face,
I look at it first thing in the morning,
I do not even look at myself in the mirror
when I wake up,
as I know I will look the same every day;
and as the night fills my head with a lot of poetry
I immerse it in the laptop;
than my mind feels free like a bird in the sky;
It amazes others that I can write good things everyday
but out of a good mind springs up good thoughts;
so even anyone who has a good mind can write poetry.

I am the queen of my life,
and I am lucky to I have a grown up son
who is so obedient and caring;
I also have two nephews
who are just the opposite of him,
they are more naughty than boys can be;
but my two nieces are just like me
very polite and disciplined
but they are always so busy
either learning or taking care of their pets;
my nephews and nieces have many ducks and dogs;
they also have a bull and two goats;
they all feel so happy to pamper their animals
and they are all so fond of their pets;
my nephews call each pet animal by a human name,
and they feel they are doing justice to them;
it appalls me that these animals respond
to those names and feel so honored
and their animal farm is just like a little circus
but I love and adore the human race anytime.

I am the queen of my life,
and I have money enough to last me a lifetime;
I have earned success and glory
with my own work and consistent efforts
which were so vast yet rewarding;
and though I have been a teacher for a while
I worked with dignity and morality;
and as I walked all those miles of my life
God also blessed me with talent of literature
and good health all thro'
so that I could be agile and virtuous;
I am sixty now and luckily I have not to take
a single medication so far
as I maintain my diet like a religion;
and I am always grateful to myself
and I am mutually grateful to all those who love me.

I am the queen of my life
and I will always be;
I am kind and empathetic to genuine people
as compassion fascinates me;
my life has been full of adventures of kindness
that even a beggar in the hades will recognize me
as when he or she was cold and hungry,
I got down from my car and fed them;
I even offered them clothes and money
as generosity belongs to those who are poor
and not to those who are arrogant.

I am the queen of my life
and Christmas is here to bring joy and unity;
but I have no great joy in my ever grieving heart
as I have lost two brothers though years ago
but I still miss them wholeheartedly even today
as they were so fond of me;
and now that I have their memories
so deeply embedded in my mind,
it was always at Xmas time we met
and celebrated our family re-unions
with such great pomp and sumptuous food
that today those empty chairs,
their loving faces steal my joy
yet to God I surrender all the sacrifices we faced;
and with a hope that in paradise
I will meet them again
I pass my days so filled with heartaches
and loneliness I feel without them;
still life is always quite beautiful
as others get born
and the family tree goes on.

I am the queen of my life
my resilience is my strength
my grace is my blessing
my mother is living goddess
and I enjoy living my life the way I live it
under the sunshine and the coconut trees
in my Goa, in my very own nativity.