Gratia Mea Patris (Ode To My Father) Poem by B3k Baylon

tis been five long years since you ve been gone...
still i ve had the hardest time remembering home.
Though most of the times we argued rather than agreed,
I know, for a fact you ve always been there for me...

People might have thought we re the greatest enemies,
But in truth we re allies, that s just between you and me
Two different souls, with same thoughts, with one heart...
Battling the odds unknowingly, right from the very start

It hurts, really...to know it s too late to say I am sorry,
All I can say is I m all grown up now & you need not worry...
Even if, more often than not I ve fallen in & out of grace,
Your words of comfort lingers during the darkest of days...

I may not have said what you needed to hear, like I love You s
cuz I thought words don t matter, i presumed... & what have you
Sorry if I didn t cry that much when you left, I have tried...
Little did they know...every inch of me silently faded & died

And so for five endless years I tried to aimlessly forget...
The moments wasted in undeniable folly with utter regrets,
That for once I should ve been unafraid to take the fall...
to be human, to care, to love & let emotions take its toll.

Ah Pops, there s so much more to show & tell; so little time...
tis a damn shame I was blinded with this silly pride of mine
all I can think of Is hope and pray that wherever you are now,
You, lookin down on me with pride, & happy...somewhere, somehow...