Every 3am Poem by Quadri Jr Ayuba

At 3am,
you dare not wake
if you're not strong enough
to face your failures
right in human form,
looking so ugly
and killing;
those thoughts
of how much you tried
but never been
good enough,
thoughts of those days
when your dream
was to save the world,
thoughts of those days
when you want to grow up
and be the best
for your little child;
At 3: 10am
you remember everything
that made you
give up on love,
The trust, betrayal
and heartbreaks,
The punches you received
All because
he always bring you
flower, chocolate and wine;
Love, care and sweet words
no longer do the magic
Those punches
Gives you Orgasm
Thoughts of how
you weren't patient enough
to show love
to those who deserve it,
By 3: 15am,
you should be done
sinking yourself
in your abstract sadness
By 3: 20am,
you would make a decision
to either write a poem,
write a letter to more uncertainties
or a suicide note.