Are You An Angel? Poem by Kevin Carney

Are you an Angel?
Or…
Maybe just a demon…
That has turned my soul.
Into something I am not used to being…
It was a long time ago…
You could have been the salvation for me.
Maybe I thought that was meant to be…
Only to realize how wrong I could be.
I walked the straight line,
of how I thought it should’ve been…
Moving day to day so safely.
Somewhere along the way I changed the way.
I followed your lead…
A stepped forward.
Only to fall backwards in the end…
Two steps I take,
freezing myself into endless time…
Unable to reach what I really need.
I spoke the words…
I am not sure you really listened…
Was I the toy, to be played with?
Or was just mesmerized by you…
Opening my soul to you…
So you could manipulate me?
If I found the courage to ask…
Would you wear the dress in all white?
Could you finally take those sacred vows?
Or in the end wearing a dress in black?
Looking so cold and callous…
Over my grave.