So They Say Poem by Vangile Mtyali

So they say

Does it get easier with time?
Does time really heal all wounds?
Then why does the wound feel and looks fresh
After so many years
Why is it that when I see a simple picture of you
I'm reminded of the scare you left me with
I'm reminded of the hurt you have caused
I'm reminded of the ocean of tears I have cried because of you
At the mention of your name
My heart can't help but beat slow
As if I'm loosing strength
Why is it that when I came around you
I feel the pain all over again
As if someone just rubbed salt on it
As if I'm reliving the moment of horror
Why is it that when I try so hard to forget about the bad that you did and try to focus on the good times
I can't help but cry tears of sorrow
Cause even those good memories
Can't seem to help me forget
Forget about the knife you left on my heart
Trust me I have forgiven you
But why does it still hurt so bad
I had hope that time will heal
I just wonder how long it will take
Then it makes me wonder
Does time really heal
I'm now realizing that time numbs the pain
It's only through acceptance that I will heal
And also when I find closure
And since you refuse to give me closure
I will give myself closure
After all my healing depends on it and I'm tired of giving you the power and tired of hurting
And when I reach that point of accepting and finding closure
Like Oprah I will finally say
True forgiveness comes when you give up the hope that the past could have been different

Vangile Mtyali