Don't Sleep On Me Poem by Just Ruby

Life has given me so many challenges these past few years. To the point that I have sat down crying asking God "why? Why me? What is it that you see in me that you continue to challenge my faith? How much strength do you see in me that you continue to throw fireballs down my way? Do you see strength where I don't even know About?

Then it came to me, He challenges me because he knows I'll be able to handle what he gives me. Despite everything he has given me I continue to stand with my head up high. I continue to fight and continue to stay positive. I have lost people along the way, I have lost so much. I even came to a point where I even lost strength to fight, I felt lost, I felt like I wasn't deserving of anything. To feel cornered, betrayed, unworthy to feel you can't trust anyone and feel alone when you aren't alone is one of the scariest most hurtful things Anyone Can feel. I'm not perfect and never will be because I'm human. But In my 33 years of being alive, I have never hurt anyone intentionally or even thought about hurting anyone intentionally. So I would ask myself why do I continue to get hurt and continue to feel betrayed by those I trust. The answer to that is because I give them that power because I make wrong choices in trusting and believing in others when I know I shouldn't. But one thing I will never lose is my faith in God and I will never stop believing in myself because I now know my strength. We all fight battles each day some choose to give up but I will never give up because I won't just be giving up on me but also on those that believe in me and the most important ones my children and I will never give up on them so I will continue to fight the odds and continue to fight for a better tomorrow for me and for my kids. Many may say how does she do it? Believe me, I ask myself sometimes how do I do it? And I already have the answer to that I do it with the same strength god sees in me yet I just ignore it. Despite the pain, I have endured in my past I know I Can do This I know I will do this. Just wait for it DONT SLEEP ON ME